It truly is thru works.... In every way

I find myself sitting waiting for blessings. I sleep in, and then wonder why I am so stressed as I try to clean, cook, wipe bottoms and play with Pearce all at the same time. When I have clarity enough to wake up, that is God blessing me with the strength to realize that it is time to get up to try and get a headstart before the kiddos wake up, so when they do, its about them and not about the dirty dishes piled high, or the laundry. For those of you that are on top of these seemingly simple tasks, don't laugh at me for my only recent realization of the repurcussions of waking up late.... hmm hmm 11 a.m. haha Pitiful. For the longest time I have separated God's promise of blessings from ordinary moments, because I felt they was something that you only recieve when you are fully worthy, or when you do things almost perfect. Well, I now know that particular mentality that I have lived with for so many years is a lie. It roots back to my parents relationship before the divorce and after. Its something I will always acknowledge to remind my self that the Atonement of Jesus Christ has and will always save me from my mistakes. And that doing things perfectly ISN'T what determines whether I will be loved and accepted. As a young girl, I watched my mom work so hard and constantly get shut out from much needed love and companionship. But I know now that this unfortunate situation involved alot of different components. There was a severe alcohol addiction involved, infidelity and other personal doubts on both ends of the spectrum that came from childhood and adulthood. I don't know the extent of it, but I know what an addiction does and doesn't do and I know that it will scream at the top of its lungs to cover up the truth and love. With that said, I will never ever believe that there wasn't love some where in that relationship because it just isn't true. We are made for love and forgiveness. We come from a source of love and devotion and we were sent to develope all that is good and uncover truth. Even those with addictions and lifestyles that don't directly coincide with the principles of the gospel, I know desire truth. It's hard to not love those in your life that are honest with you, even if they put your ego in its place. In the moment you might be defensive and uncomfortable, but then down the road you look back and say, wow he/she really cared about me, even thru a severe addiction or whatever trial it may be.