Emma, seriously?

8:30 p.m. I just got back from the store. I thought of a reason to go so I could get a treat. How pitiful is that, I couldn't even make it through the night. $1.50 cherry cordials are not good.... And yet I bought them and after about the fifth I kept going. I seriously was about to gag and I paused thinking about what my options were and for some reason was frightened of not finishing them. The good news is, I didn't finish all of them cuz I came to the realization they are the equivalent of cherry cough syrup syringed inside of really cheap chocolate, so there for I decided they weren't worth it. But still, sitting in my driveway I was soooo very hesitant to throw them in the trash. I felt I was losing something so significant. Sorry that this is sooooooo revealing, but I need to know that someone knows what is going on so I will be motivated to change. Don't feel sorry for me when you read this cuz this is a huge gigantic step to confront my fears and past.... this is a happy moment haha .... In a totally awkward way ;) Thanks!